The Hypocrisy Of Encouraging People to Change…READ THIS POST BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE!

Long title!

What am I saying in that heading? Well, in looking at other websites based around health and fitness, I have found (and I refuse to list them, seriously i don’t want to be sued!) that a few of them have in-depth knowledge and are willing to share it, but they certainly do NOT live it!

I have been fucking up all year with my health, eating a bag of chips here, an ice cream tub there, take out food way too often, and eating from feelings which NEVER leads somewhere good! This is the only reason why there’s been no posts or updates since February 2024. In good conscience I couldn’t promote a healthier life and fitness while living like a pig, my integrity couldn’t allow me to do this, which is the reason I can’t rip off people, steal, or cause others harm. The bibile says the fool is considered wise if he shuts his mouth, and that has been my life over the past 12 months. I’ve been looking for quick fixes, easy escapes, soothing of feelings and coping with negative thoughts and stress instead of healing the stress and confronting the thoughts.

It wasn’t until September until I started doing some deep work with myself, I asked God for help, but I was serious about it, and he ‘helped’ me alright, I had to dispel lies about myself with great effort and consistency and as He showed me where to focus I was surprised by what was revelead. The things I thought were internal issues were just symptoms of deeper problems from a heavily traumatic childhood. I had to cut the ties between these problems and the emotions I tied to them. I could go into how I did this but it is easier for you in my opinion to just tell you this:

Deeply (nothing superficial or lip-service) take responsibility for what you do and have done, acknowledge where you at now and stay with it, make sure that you keep in mind accountability, responsibility, course correction (refuse to be offended or defeated by genuine constructive criticism, learn from it) forgiveness, and love. NEVER rely on feelings to feel better because this is a false positive! Look for the peace, because feeling good is fine, but peace cannot be mimicked by feelings. In essence, once you’ve really done some deep internal work about yourself, look for the peace, you won’t feel it per se, it will just happen. Then will come that beasutiful moment when the sting that your problems and pains caused will have no effect, this is peace.

Note that constructive criticism is there to stop us from thinking we’re on a better path but its just a redressed version of the same desitnation. This shit hurts, but it’s a requirement for change, it doesn’t always come from someone else, sometimes you must critique yourself. I had to force this into my mind and one of the most difficult realisations is “It’s not my wife’s fault, or my daughters, or work, or lack of time, it’s mine alone! I stay up late, I eat late at night, I choose what I eat.

If you have read the Foundations course there’s a story about a close friend that learned everything they could about fitness and nutrition so they could argue their case (to remain morbidly obese) and would often win the argument? Well I’ve seen in these cases that the person writing the content sincerely wants to follow their own advice, but for some reason or another just can’t get past the mental/emotional/physical blockage.

Well guys, I must confess that I have been the above for the past 10 months. I have written (I think) some great content on mental connecitons to food, exercise and emotions. I have written strategies on how to overcome sabotage and self destructive habits, yada yada yada. But what i have failed at doing is being honest with you, my audience.

Now even though this site is still under construction I write these posts so that when you see them you can know that I am one of you and I struggle with the same shit! Ethan Suplee wrote on his American Glutton blog a great post on Christmas Fuckits, go read it. Well, now that it is Christmas time, my weight and body composition hasn’t changed much in the last 12 months. Why? Better questions instead of just saying why are:

Why did I choose to make the decisions I made?
I was offered assitance from a coach who knew my situation, why didn’t I take it?
I say to myself “I would die for my daughter” but when will I live for her?
Why were ‘just a taste’ and ‘oh, just a bit more’ the most important decisions I made many days in a row.
Why did I run and ‘protect’ myself from working out like I was fighting off the undead?
Why did i live on the surface level rather than let instruction/encouragement/love change me?
Why did I try to do this alone?
Why did I choose food over sex?

Add whatever question you need to ask yourself and be brutally honest about it.

When my mother died all she had left was regret, do I want to follow the same path to regret? No, ofcourse I don’t and neither do you! But words are piss in the wind if there’s no action to back them, that’s how I lived in regards to health this year. Let me encourage you to and myself to make 2025 the year of a healthier us, no regrets, an attitude of moving forward as best we can, and accepting the help when it’s offered.

My goal now is to encourage you and have the receipts to back that up.

Love you all

P